my music my remedy!

perhentian was awesome!

beautiful, clear sea. white sand. brilliant bright sun. it everything that i call paradise!
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i went snorkeling a lot, it was a blast,
hopefully through the swimming had helped me lose weight, i'm so fucking fat!
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it was sad though, my tan isn't even my back, legs, and arms are tanned,
but my boobs and stomach isn't. fuck it. disappointment ):
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through this trip, i realized how much the sea calms me
and proves me with excited and a thrill
the sensation is indescribable, but its a good one
a rush of adrenaline!
anyways i've upload some photos, they are in sequence
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side kicking during the sunrise (:

stop the rainbow

perhentian beach view, its so beautiful!

me snorkeling with my pink snorkeling gear :P

sunset from the restaurant

finishing the trip of with a side kick during the sunset while waiting for the coach

the aftermath of a trip for Kate :P

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as you noticed, did a lot of camwhoring.
a lot of memorable family photos (i'm a family girl, who still knows how to have fun)
i love my family, and HEART them
lots of sarcasm, and laughter while being there
pity about the waiting, the fucking bus broke down. damn mad at it
OH!!!!! almost forgot, i touch a sea turtle, my looooong dream has came true.
it was so fun! i mean i had to swim under the sea with my snorkeling gear
the best experience ever! (well, one of the best)
anyways i think that's it

peace out (:

Have a Safe Journey, Natasha!

today, damn, i actually believe me and nat walked about 2-3 km! it was damn tiring, got fucking blister from my flat! knew i should had just worn my usual flip flops.

anyways we went to sungai wang. haha, just because nat wanted a particular earring, which could be easily found in sungai wang, then we walked and walked from top to bottom, bottom to top! i got a new shirt. fuck, knew i shouldn't had gotten it. mum's going to kill me, if she found me wasting money again! anyway yuka met up with me and nat, she went to "zoo body art" to get a cartilage earring. there we met drankie :p he's not my type, but i loved his nose bridge piercing! (its something like the pic below)


but personally, i'll never get it done. instead before i leave for england(that's if i do), i'm planning to get another piercing around my ear. i've already gotten earlobes, and a helix pierced. i wanna try either a tragus piercing or an industrial piercing.

Tragus Piercing
(the piercing penetrates the tragus)

industrial piercing
(where a straight barbell is used, and it goes through two ear cartilages.. ouch!)

Should I get another one? I really want a industrial piercing, it looks so cool and unusual. see first, i might not even get one. haha.

anyways we went to pavillion, and starhill as well. its so funny, i had mistaken givenchy for balenciaga. i really don't understand how, but i did. anyways nothing much happened, just talked and laughed a lot. here are like 3 picture, where i look horrible and hideous in.

nat and me
such a "wonderful" face isn't it

me and yuka
you can see my eye bags from sleeping at 4am every night! just brilliant...

haha. simple me, and my fat arms.. something else ;)

anyways that's it for now (:
night, peace out!

ps. natasha, have a safe journey! me yelling "chanel" from malaysia to paris!

Is this what I want?

Is being beautiful or handsome a must for you?

Do you crave for a beautiful or handsome face?
Do you desire for the ideal body?

But what is your the ideal body or face?
Is it this?


or this

For the guys, is this how you wish to be seen as?



or this

To me, looks are everything nowadays. But has it gotten to the point, where even physical appearances are what "sells" things. My ex-photography/publication teacher always said, "the old clique is "sex sells." Such ads, like this Dolce and Gabbana (shown below,) illustrate such saying. In addition, it had also been sued due to being too "graphic," meaning the representation of a bunch of men raping a women.

I'm going off topic here, but what I'm trying to say it how media influences us to become someone else and creates "images" that causes us to admire and "want to be." The image of "how one should look like" has been the doings of media. But we can't entirely blame the media for influence us. We have to partly blame ourselves, as audiences, whom help the media produce such images.

I have seen people complain about their appearance and how much they want to change in order to be "beautiful" or "handsome." My friends do the same, I, personally do the same too. I always wanted to look like Angelina Jolie; having her lips, and jaw lines. Adding on the body of Jessica Alba. There are even a point in my life, where I just wanted to smash the mirror as it reflect an ugly "me". I've been through a lot of different diets, and work out a lot to be where I am today.

But I'm still not satisfied, but when are human beings ever satisfied of what they are? When will we, human, ever say, "this is enough, I'm satisfied with what I got" I noticed not many say that, even if we do, we still crave for more, and better. This idea appeals to many things, but most importantly to "how one wants to look like." Many people go through painful processes, such as diets, cosmetic surgeries, and life threaten experience just to feel satisfied about themselves. Some people die in order to achieve their ideal "looks," by starving themselves, or when plastic surgery "went wrong." When they are gone, do you believe they are satisfied?

Finally, I don't know what you think? But sometimes I feel selfish, I only think about myself, and no others. And that my problem are just something small, while others have to worry about surviving a day.

So think again... What is more important, your satisfaction or others?

PS. I know I'm contradictive, but isn't everyone.
PSS. I know I always get off topic, sorry

Top 10 Things that I am Currently Worrying or Loving

i'm flipping bored, and pathless. so i'm just blogging for the fun of it. that tells you i'm really jobless and lifeless in ways.

10. loving a school-less life

goodbye ISKL, i loved you and hated you greatly.
don't worry i'll miss the publications and making fun corey loo

9. loving grey's anatomy
oh... beautiful McSteamy and McDreamy that's why i watch grey's, and for some weird reason i wanna become a doctor imagine Kate as a doctor? no, i don't think so

8. Worrying about my weight ):
shit.. shit.. shit.. i think i'm just gaining more and more weight! its not fun at all
i need to train and go to the gym more often

7. loving Death Cab!
i can't believe i'm going to singapore to watch them. thanks to Natasha for telling me, and going with me
if not i would be all alone ): no fun! plus its an once in a lifetime experience

6. Worrying about training
i haven't went training often, and been either sick or injured. so no fun! i hate it
therefore better + stronger = train harder

5. loving Marc Jacobs bags (:
nothing more is needed to be said, i just simply love them

4. Worrying about those poor little children with no food ):
i'm so bloody lucky, and i'm leaving food unfinished. so its makes me wonder ):
how wasteful i am when there are people, especially children, around the world suffering

3. loving my clean and organized room
finally i've cleaned and organized my room. since i've finished school, i haven't done anything
to make it look good :P and now it's beautiful
(pictures will be added later and my room is very small!)

2. loving the sun!
i loving having the sun in my hands :P
the sun makes me happy and gives me tan. so maybe i'll tan tomorrow in my bikini... shit my body ):

Island In The Sun by ~indie-cisive on deviantART

1. Worrying about my Acceptance Letter from Trent
i really wanna go to nottingham trent.
i just want the experience of being overseas, and being independent
i really want this. its what i want

i went out last night! so glad i did. It was fun with natasha and yuka.
after last night i realize how much i missed clubbing and dancing.

dumped into jeffrey, abel, daniel and travis in maison too
kind of irony, whenever i see them its always in the club, bloody irony.

anyways natasha took some pictures (:

me being retarded as usual

me, natasha and yuka

me and yuka

me and natasha

it was great fun last night, except at one part of the night i felt like killing myself.
i can't fucking believe i did such an embarrassing thing, after doing it i felt like stabbing myself in the heart three times (trying to beat Elliott Smith's suicide experience, cause he stabbed his heart 2 times)
Anyway this is when i fuck the tequila, and beer. i'm never going to drink and get tipsy again!

PS. i got a new piercing, and yuka's english is so wonderful (talkable, punch the hold... i love your english bakana sakana)

Finally Done with High School (:

i noticed no photos of my graduation is uploaded (:

well, now i got some. they aren't very good photos of me. too bad, the camera just doesn't like nor it really matters, cause i'm no where near attractive. (there isn't a lot though)

me and corey loo
I ruv annoying u, and stealing ur cookies, and drinking tea with u
go find a girlfriend!

Natasha, Me, Jana, and I Chi
I'll miss you, Jana! Its a shock you're leaving so soon.
We should have hung out more often ): Nevermind, meet me in England okay! (Hopefully that is)
I Chi! My favourite Taiwanese Guy!
I had lots of fun with you in Mandarin Class. ADD and your brilliant singing, that I'll miss.

Mi Familia (:
(Mi hombro, nombre es Simon, mi, y mi madre)
Yo le quieran!
You have always been there for me, when I needed you the most.
Sarcasm, laughter, anger, sadness and everything else

Calvin Lim!
Yo te amo <3
You are the best! No more is needed to be said

No serious (: I really thank everyone that had been there for me.
The teachers and staff
My close beautiful friends

Ahhhhhh.. I can't think of what else to say (:

Peace Out!