3rd Taekwon-Do I.T.F World Cup en Italia!

well... well... well... never actually saw this coming. but yes, i actually participated in the actual event. 4 events in total, 2 in which i didn't expect at all.
- individual pattern
- individual sparring -52kg
- team pattern
- team sparring

for pattern i felt i did okay, but could had done better. but man, i had a panic attack! i liked cried twice in one day. once before and once after the pattern event. i just suddenly felt like crying, release my stress and shit. anyways it was okay. got out first round, but its okay. its the experience that counts. but for team pattern, it was funny! we were in the semi final already, win or lose, we'll get a bronze medal, so we decided to just go for it! anyhow at least i got a bronze medal!

sparring was a different matter. i sparred like crap in both matches. i didn't mind, just wanted the experience. it was worth it. but for team sparring, i was fucked up. i can't believe it! the coach, whom i don't know told me to go in. i was like, wtf! i mean i didn't train for about 3 weeks or so. then again, with a fucking tall girl! in the end, got hit right below the ribs, thank god for that! if not, i would had dead! well, had crack ribs, and be in pain for like weeks. its no fun for that. *experienced it before*

well, that the competition. but wait for the after party. fuck the argentinians. them, fuckers, tricked me into kissing them. in total 4 of them! well, its over and i was pretty tipsy. so yar, who can you blame except for my dumbwittedness.

that's it for italia (: pictures will be posted soon the internet decides to work again ):

international orientation, freshers week (:

sorry for the tremendous delay of my blogs, and even though those event were like in sept/oct, i still would love to blog them!

for international orientation, it was pretty much like boring seminar and shit like that. adding on, i don't know what. erm........................................................... don't remember! but do have some fun time. especially one of the first night, where i got trashed so badly! polish and their vodkas (:

for freshers, it was extreme! damn, especially the second/third night? don't remember, but i'll thank my flatmate's friend for that! yar vodka and juice!

here's like two hideous photos of me:





okay, i'll go now and blog something else.

PS. should actually take my camera out often!

back again!

sorry people who actually read my blog. i just been way too busy or more like i just didn't have anything to write about. but since i'm actually am doing some interesting things, i'll try and update to you as much as i can.

but for now i need to fuck off somewhere and actually get some work done for tomorrow's tutorial group.

that day in publications (:

here's a bunch of pictures of my bestest friends (natasha, misono and yuka) and i together with my favourite teacher, mr. ubl (:








hope you enjoyed the snapshots (:

cheers!

3 nights in a row (:

my favourite girlfriend is back (: MISONO HATTORI.

that's why i haven't been updating my blog. i was too busy having fun, partying 3 night in a row. bar club, maison, poppy. damn, feels like the good old times. but its such a pity, its now over for me. because of stupid competition. i will miss those memorable times with you. all the chivas, dancing, and your bra showing, misono.

but also i want to thank natasha for being there for me (: love you lots. don't worry, i love it when you are mushy. sorry if i've been just a rack, and boring or emotional, to all my friends. too many things happened within those days. causing such a break down.

its a bit hard and very boring if i list everything out. but i'm just very happy that misono came back. we are just like the 4 girl in sex and the city. pity, only misono, you match one of the characters, Samantha Jones. But what sucks the most is when you are back, we know that you'll depart us soon. However, sadly this time isn't just you, but yuka too. I feel bad for teasing you a lot, but you are just so adorable when you are teased. don't worry, i love you lots, yuka! just remember to take care of yourself, japan is dangerous and the guys (especially now, everywhere) are tricky and cunning. will do anything to get into your pants. you be careful, i want to you know whether its the right time for you. and NEVER choose a guy by their looks, and don't ever go out alone with a guy at night to bars or clubs. its dangerous. Please get into Waseda, and misono will look after you. teaching you from right to wrong.

misono, there is just too much to say about you. too much to recall. all those bitter but mostly sweet moment with you. those talks we had (: don't worry, i'll never forget the moments with you. you are the most cheerful and happy-go-lucky girl i've known. same goes to natasha, though we haven't known each other for long, we still had a pretty long history together. i love the times we had. you're such a good support! thanks so much for singapore, and death cab. it was worth it. and wedgewood! such a place to remember. and ur parents are just so greatful! i thank them lots.

anyways peace out, i wanna read "breaking dawn."

PS. just a few of the many pictures we took.

death cab and daddy <3

Death Cab in Singapore

one of my best experiences ever! thanks to my lovely Natasha for telling me and buying me the tickets! i'm so glad we spend the moment together (sound so sappy)

well, they played most of my favourite songs, except for "what sarah said." and some in which i never heard before. (such a fan i am) but i love it! very brilliant (:

below are the pictures i took
(they suck, but to me (as a photographer) are the best :P self-praising)

BUT! there was a fucking problem. i nearly got death cab's autograph, and because of the fucking annoying organizers or manager we couldn't get the autograph. why? because we haven't bought any of their merchandise. exception from that (:

i have a beautiful dream that no one can take away from me. i dreamed of my daddy (: i really miss you so so so much! i wish you were still here to see me. i believe you were looking down on my from above when i receive my HS diploma during graduation. now i'll be going to england (hopefully) can i ask you a favour, can you make it happen? can you make sure i get into university in england. i feel your happiness (: i won't disappoint you, dad! the dream of the best ever! please come to my dreams more often. let me see you in my dreams and lets us talk!

(i know i sound crazy, but i believe in these things)

that's it for now
peace out
PS. love you and miss you lots dad!

concluded

okay (: i have concluded that the dream was just a dream. 

i, therefore have no feelings for him!

now for the world cup. yes, i'm going to the taekwon-do world cup held in italy this year.

wish me luck, i only have like, less than 2 months to train. 

i'm going to be wrecked to death! watch me, i'll (FOR SURE) cry )':

adding on a major black eye and a few fracture ribs. 

i swear, i'm a nutter to go to such competition. why did i volunteer? stupid kate!

my beloved misono hattori bukkake penis lesbian girlfriend is visiting in 6 days time!

i miss her dearly, can't wait to see her.

shit. i have to balance out all my plans ): 

training, shopping, clubbing, tanning, chilling! 

i'll be very busy. 

peace out

ps. 4kg to go!

robbie <3

my robbie (:

i've always had a thing for robbie williams (celebrity crush alert)

robbie williams, a british pop singer whom started out in take that. but got thrown out due to his alcohol addiction. within his "rudebox" album, two sing which he sang reflected the life before he joined and the life when he join, 80s and 90s. (i hope i got it right, knowing me)

but what i liked of robbie is his music, and (of cause) he's bad boy image. so damn sexy :P

i was "suppose" to go to his concert in september (i think) in singapore, but got cancel due to robbie's tiredness. i hope i get to catch him in england.

let's have a look at some robbie pictures :P

i have to admit, he isn't the most attractive celebrity. but its he's charisma, his music, he's character portray through his music, the way he smile and pose in his photo, how he concert are (as seen on telly,) and lastly his "bad boy" image. he just can be one!

its all those little things that makes me "love" him!
what i say might not be true, but i don't care (: i heart him <3
and there will be ppl who will TOTALLY disagree with me, and say he isn't attractive at all,
but well, who cares. as long as i know i heart him, i'm happy

there are a number of songs i absolutely love by robbie. i won't explain why, but are the ones that love. always listen to.

• Come Undone
• Feel
• Something Beautiful
• Let Me Entertain You
• Rock DJ
• Eternity
• Ghost
• 80s and 90s

There are just a few named from the top of my head (:
download them :P (if you want to)

Cheers (:

why now?

i have a crush on you. 

why now? why at this every moment in my life?

i sworn never to have feelings for you.

i told you that it was impossible for me to ever like you more than a friend.

but last night, it hit me. 

i dreamt of you. i felt something special between us. 

something that i never felt for a long time.

as thought i loved you.

but it impossible

you will never feel for me like that

even so, we both know that its impossible

oh elijah and charlie <3

Green Street Hooligan
Starring Elijah Wood and Charlie Hunnam

this movie was banned by the Malaysian government. yet another movie, i guess it was just "too violent" for us gentle Malaysian. back to the point, the story is about a havard student whom are expelled (because he's roommate, a elite was a coke head, and use Elijah to cover up his wrongdoing to protect his family's reputation) and traveled to England to visit his sister.

during his time in England he dumped into Pete, a football hooligan and *if i'm not mistaken* the major of the GSE (Green Street Elite) Firm. after Matt join the firm, he had gain a deeper understanding of loyalty and a person's reputation.

this is the GSE firm within the movie. notice how small Elijah is.

in the movie, it consisted a lot of violence. but it wasn't the violence and the notion of football hooligans that made me love this movie but the slogan of the movie
"Stand your Ground"
this slogan now became my new motto. this movie related to me in a very indirect way. as a martial artist, respect and loyalty is important. but the part about reputation, it also important for both the leader and the individual. once you walk away, you had some dishonor and disgraced not just your leader but yourself. that's why i found this movie meaning and very good.
.
.
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now for the eye candy

Charlie Hunnam

in the movie he was like one of those bad boys with a good heart in the end. he was beaten to death in the end (i cried) but it was heroic in the sense that he was making sure that his brother's wife and brother in-law was able to leave the big fighting scene. but also the character he portray had a good sense of humour and a brilliant charisma.

next...

Elijah Wood

i have been having on and off celebrity crushing with Elijah Wood. starting from lord of the rings onwards. but i found that Elijah suited the character, as him always being an innocent looking actor. (not sure about reality though) i love his piercing blue eyes. so beautiful. i'm a sucker for brunets and blue eyes.

that's the end of my post for this movie. i downloaded just so you know and it isn't everyone's cup of tea (:

cheers!

life too short to be afraid

my room is messy. my clothes are everywhere. i'm living a life of a pig.
just too lazy to care about anything anymore.
but... ... truth is (: i'm lazy, and just don't bother anymore!
the school-less life is fantastic, i particular don't do anything (that's why my room's a mess) i'm going to singapore next week (i think) to watch the death cab concert, kinda regret it, kinda short on money for me, as mother doesn't wanna pay much for me. time to take a trip to the bank ):
what else have i been doing, exception for lazying and administrating. oh! i forgot about two other movies i've watch and loved (:

continuing with my movie saga :P

21
starring Jim Sturgess, Kevin Spacey,
Kate Bosworth, Aaron Yoo, Liza Lapira

as many would know, this movie just came out this year and many might had already watched it. but i just watched it! it's good! i mean the storyline, and how amazing when you can just count cards to win money! but like all movies nowadays it had an amazing twist. but the downfall was i didn't understand the "counting card" process when playing blackjack. kinda sad, i would love to learn it. but just a pity i suck at math!

ask you see, i have another celebrity crush (not big though) on Jim Sturgess. he also played in The Other Boleyn Girl as George Boleyn, the brother of Mary and Ann Boleyn.

Jim Sturgess with Kate Bosworth

The next movie will be separate, as its one of my favourites (:

movies. movies. movies.

well, recently i've been doing nothing. particularly nothing. okay, i did do some things, to do with my university and stuff. but exception from that and CHORES! i've been lying in bed and watching movie! tv series got kinda boring for me, so i wanted a change. it all started out with the trailer for The Other Boleyn Girl, then Shakespeare in Love. because i was interested in english historical context type, though Shakespeare in Love isn't exactly historical, but the ancient-ness of it, made me want to watch it.

Shakespeare in Love
starring Gwyneth Paltrow and Joseph Fiennes


well, just a short summary. its basically depicting how William Shakespeare (one of the most renown english play writer and poet) wrote Romeo and Juliet. Its pretty much a beautiful movie, involving humour and laughter. but the question lies behind is whether Shakespeare really wrote Romeo and Juliet with such situation. anyhow, i still love this movie. it was the winner for (don't know how much academy awards) but the english within the movie consist a bit of "old english" usage. therefore, it may be hard to understand. but i instantly "fell in love" with "Shakespeare within the movie." So romantic, and his expression when looking as gwyneth paltrow. as the photo shown below is one of my favourites (: so much i wish my boyfriend could write beautiful love poetry ;)

Lady Viola as Juliet and Shakespeare as Romeo

The Other Boleyn Girl
starring Natalie Portman, Scarlett Johansson, and Eric Bana

This movie kind of based on historical facts, although not everything stated within the movie was true. but its interesting, on how the church of england arise, and why king henry VIII did what he did. in addition, the virgin queen was born, which changed many things in the english history (i hope what i'm saying is true) the storyline is based on a novel written by (i don't know who) about two boleyn sisters . mary and anne. one is served as a mistress and the other makes king henry VIII make her queen. be whole story is actually kinda complicated. so better if you watch it for yourself. but its really only recommended for people find historical context interesting.

mary and king henry VIII

me. whining.

i need somewhere to complain and whine! so i'm doing it here. bewared, if you hate people whom whine, please just leave.

FUCK! i hate administration stuff. i hate the fact i have NO WHERE, literally NO WHERE to live when i start university. guarantee accommodation, bullshit! then why the fuck is all the rooms booked up? i need somewhere to live, mister. i barely know england, and now u want me to go find a private sector? damn, how? i'm stuck. fucking hell. i think i whined about this before, but i'm still pissed cause i want a campus accommodation. its way easier than having to do all those paper work, and checking the places out. such luck i have here! nevermind, i've given up entirely. so what to do?

okay i'm done (:

yes... yes..

i'm pretty much doing nothing but a lot of things. its hard to explain. i just feel like lazying around, but fuck i have stuff to do. stupid university! why DID i volunteer to go over seas anyway. lame! anyhow, now i'm stuck with no where to live (fucking nottingham trent's accommodation) and stupid visa to do along with EPF. oh, so many things to do just SO i can go overseas.

now lets talk about a movie i've watched recently.
yes i know it's an old movie. but i loved it! its such a chick flick. damn! haha, but only reason why i've watched it cause katherine heigl, commonly known as dr. isobel stevens (:

i've always like her. me and natasha came up with a "beauty classification." and heigl is definately a classic beauty. i've always like classic beauties, which includes liv tyler, audrey hepburn etc. etc. i love the complexions, and standout features. they are, to me, the perfect kind. the bodies aren't too skinny, like the models. but i've noticed has curves, but then again. they are still slim and slender! how i wish to be like them. personally, i admire their beauty, not sure about their personality.

james marsden! i didn't know he was cyclopes in x-men. but anyways he was in the movie, then he's fine! he's a bit skinny, but i'm not complaining. its was his character as kevin doly (i think that was the name) that i loved. so romantic and cheeky! but i find marsden damn sexy! especially his eyes. wow! amazing. charisma (:

anyways that's about it. oh, i'm trying hard to lose weight, but fuck. its hard! just have to keep up with the work out. i also sprint my fucking ankle (again). hate injuries with recovery time! it isn't fun ):

peace out!

oh, just wonderful

okay. i don't remember when i last updated my blog, but life's okay (: i'm still can't believe i'm off to england in a few weeks time.

but i have dilemma! i feel fat. like fucking fat. so fat that i feel like a elephant or hippo or pig. damn ): its not fun! i wanna be like i was last year when i was like 50kg. now i'm like 60kg ): no fun! note to self, STOP EATING and go WORK OUT! damn ): depressed now! fuck

anyways went to maison, since beloved yuka enomoto will be leaving for japan for like 3 weeks i think. then 9 days after natasha's going to go. i'll be left alone! nevermind, i have to concentrate on my competition. extremely wonderful~ wait! that mean i can lose weight as an excuse :P back to maison. well, we went to mojo first, cause maison was closed for some weird competition. then at 11ish we went back and had fun! danced till my hips couldn't take it anymore. seriously, i need to belly dance with mum again. it helps strengthen my hips and i won't look like slut dancer but a sexy dancer :P speaking of slut dancer. wow! yestereday there were so many i love them! so flattering and feminine. dude, i could left my leg up and shit (thanks to tkd) so i told yuka, maybe i should just perform some kicks the guys will be so erm... excited? haha.

anyway nothing much to say. i have to clean the whole condo up tomorrow and the clothes and dished. thanks to my beloved brother for not doing anything! wow, such a good boy.

so peace out (:

i think you noticed my dilemma (i've gain a lot of weight)

love this photo, cause you can't see my fugly face

me and yuka (:

wow, very flattering indeed!

me and natasha

sometimes i just don't understand you

well... i kinda lazy to continue with my "mis amigas" entire. but i have another 3 more amigas, whom yo les quieres. 

the sun is shining again for me. nottingham trent has finally accepted me (thanks so much or else i would be taking a gap year (wasting my fucking time on nothing)) but now i have to do all the bloody administration stuff, accommodation, visa and shit. adding on the stress of MONEY! i hate the economy, and fuck the people whom keep rising the petrol price. i don't drive but seriously its getting unreasonable. you can't compare it was england, because its 1 against 7 (i like to max it) but not everyone is rich, not everyone can afford to live on luxury. imagine u earn 700rm, and ur petrol consumption is what, about 80rm per week. 80 x approx 4 weeks = 320; 700-320=380. that's left of what you earn, 380 still needs to be spend on food and other necessaries. fuck the idea of saving, you can't save when you have no choice but to spend ur money on things you NEED! 

okay that's enough of my non-sense. anyways the information proved it like bullshit, and invalid! 

my mum's going to china!! can't wait, a whole week being with my brother. INDEPENDENCE! but i have to do the chores. lame, sods law. i can't wait for natasha to come back from europe, then we can go out and club again! anyways i remember what i wanted to say.

i fucking hate jerks. they are the biggest bastards in the world. i swear they should be castrated, and put on display to let ppl know who they are. anyway there's a guy (no names just incase) told me that he and his girlfriend broke up for good. so he asked me out to club, i said no cause of training reasons. instead said i'll met up with him next thursday, cause he sounds sad. but guess what, later that day i found out he didn't break up! what the fuck.. fucking twat! if you wanted to see just ask me out for a drink, don't need to give some pointless excuse lad. damn you! next time you dare say hi to me, you'll get a slap to your face. i hate jerks like you , i hate liars like you. you don't lie about ur relationship. say your being faithful, fuck it. you told a person you just broke up with them, then what to seek them for comfort! not a chance, i swear you'll get slap if not punch in the face! 

anything that got to me was the fact i have to go to another GTF competition. i'm in no mood for competitions, well no mood for GTF ones. i hate their rules, and political bias-ness, especially that day during the sparring with that girl. fuck you, gave it to her and not me when i deserved it (at least what master tan said) nevermind, i'll train even harder and get even more tougher. hopefully not get injured before or during the tournament. imagine kate in a cast just before heading off to england, just a memory to bring with me. i aim for 2 golds this time, 2 golds! 

anyways enough of my non sense i'm off

peace out. 

MUY FELIZ!!!!!

Yo tengo muy feliz! Porque yo tengo mi resultados del examen y yo recibido resultados beunos! 

(kate's attempt of using her spanish skills)

i'm back on track

after two days of being emo, fuck, i pulled myself together and started some new paths.
i'm constructing some new roads for myself, new road = new destiny
i currently have 4 plans.

Plan A
- apply for local art school, then after 3 years transfer
- scuba diving license
- more traveling!

Plan B
- if Nottingham Trent University accepts me (:
- for sure, I'll go without second thoughts

Plan C
Part A
- if they reject me
- appeal again for Nottingham Trent University
- all else fails, goodbye England. hello Malaysia!
Part B
- stay in England for a couple of month
- go to Italy to visit my grand-aunt and uncle
- find a job around England too (:

Plan D
- apply to a university in Italy
- look at Academia Italiana, Florence
- learn Italian :P

well, that what i've planned (: hopefully one of them will work out for me
secretly, i'm desperate for plan b (;

just can't get what i want

life's fucked up, its a piece of shit. i'm not going to england, i've accepted it. i can't wait anymore, its been too long. all i feel like doing now is curling up into a little ball, and cry my head off until i'm dehyedrated and die.

i feel like stabbing myself 3,4 times just so the pain will go away. no one understands how i feel right now. not even my mum, she just tole me there nothing i can do now, but just wait. i can't wait, i'm angry and furious. i just want to die, so all my emotions will go away. then i won't need to feel anything anymore.

i want to go to Nottingham Trent University. i want to make more friends, i want to meet ppl whom i got to know on facebook. i want to visit grandma, grandad, aunty louise, little benny boy, and everyone i know. its so unfair, i just can't get what i want can't it. i was never able to get what i want, i mean the things i wanted in life are never what i want. i want to go to england, i'm dying to go to england. i want that acceptance! that's nothing much to ask for. i'm not doing a medical or a law degree. fuck, i'm doing a graphic designs degree. what do i need to stress that i'm capable for the course, i won't mind killing myself to get in. as i said, i'm dying to get in. i'll die to get in.

fuck it, i give up. i should've gave up long ago.

fuck my future. i give up

i can't believe it, after so long, the fucking admin calls and says, "they don't know what did i sent them!!!!!!!"

FUCKING HELL,
FUCKING STUPID..
and MAJOR DISAPPOINTMENT

damn it, i can't believe i swear. i just give up my hopes, i rather stay in kl and get a scuba diving license and wonder all the diving destination. save my mum and i money!

anyways i cried and shit. but still went out. went to heritage mansion with tanes and his friend g-when (extremely pretty girl, beautiful features)

i was very glad to go, and not everyone can go! its like an A-List area, all the high profit maker and famous go. i got the chance to meet some ppl, whom are... well, very interesting. adding on, a model called "sunshine" she's brilliant and friendly. u know what, do u think

i could be a model?

i can't. she told me and g-when to send in our portfolios and she'll get us some jobs. fuck, even if i send my portfolio, i know i won't get a single fucking job!!!!! i'll do it, if i get one. fucking hell, life's great. then i get more money :P

anyways i fucking hate my life now, and damn depressed. fuck.. i can't stop swearing.

night

fuck is all i can say

i can't fucking sleep. shit, i wanna sleep.
fuck life sometimes. i hate waiting.
i just wanna know, i'm fucking nervous now.
fuck IB fuck trent. can't in someway i get to know sooner than suffer?
it'll make my life so much better not mention more peaceful, and lesser worry lines

hopefully i get to go out tomorrow night.
please tanes don't cancel on me (:

my music my remedy!

perhentian was awesome!

beautiful, clear sea. white sand. brilliant bright sun. it everything that i call paradise!
• • •
i went snorkeling a lot, it was a blast,
hopefully through the swimming had helped me lose weight, i'm so fucking fat!
• • •
it was sad though, my tan isn't even my back, legs, and arms are tanned,
but my boobs and stomach isn't. fuck it. disappointment ):
• • •
through this trip, i realized how much the sea calms me
and proves me with excited and a thrill
the sensation is indescribable, but its a good one
a rush of adrenaline!
anyways i've upload some photos, they are in sequence
• • •

side kicking during the sunrise (:

stop the rainbow

perhentian beach view, its so beautiful!

me snorkeling with my pink snorkeling gear :P

sunset from the restaurant

finishing the trip of with a side kick during the sunset while waiting for the coach

the aftermath of a trip for Kate :P

• • •
as you noticed, did a lot of camwhoring.
a lot of memorable family photos (i'm a family girl, who still knows how to have fun)
i love my family, and HEART them
lots of sarcasm, and laughter while being there
pity about the waiting, the fucking bus broke down. damn mad at it
OH!!!!! almost forgot, i touch a sea turtle, my looooong dream has came true.
it was so fun! i mean i had to swim under the sea with my snorkeling gear
the best experience ever! (well, one of the best)
anyways i think that's it

peace out (: