well. now i'm at school pretty much bored of my ass. 

these few days haven't been much of a highlight. i been quite sad and stressed out. 

but just wanna express my feelings somewhere. so here it goes.

i miss you very much

how come i never dream of you anymore

have you left me just in this lonesome world

i still can't let go of you 

you still in my heart

you promised me

you promised that you will see me walk along the stage

walking along to get what i deserve the most

you said it'll be another 10 years

but what happened its was only two

i can't let go of you

i just can't

no matter how many i tried to forget

the tragic that once happen

memories of you

still wonder and ponder into my head

i cried for you yesterday

i cried because you promise

i cried because you said you will wait

i cried because i love you

i cried because i miss you

dad no one can replace

i don't care what you have done to make me sad

but you always treasured me

i was 'daddy's little girl (:'

but no longer cause you left me

you left us to survive by ourselves

in a lonely island in the middle of the nowhere

i'll visit you soon

and for one last thing

i hope to dream of you again

i hope to feel you watching me from above

during graduation

love and kisses,

kate ):

there is goes. all my sorrow poured out. i don't know maybe i just an egotistic teenage-ish girl. but sometimes i feel like a little baby who still needs her mummy and daddy to feed her milk. i don't know. i'll be leaving soon ): going halfway around the globe to survive for myself. maybe i need a change and a path that i never thought of taking. i'll miss everyone i have known for years. shit, rahim was right, i'm experience the liminality of leaving high school. 

wait. now i say very egotistic now. haha. i'll never change, it just makes me ME. well, i tend to be put other people's personal problem due to the idea of "privacy" of others? anyways i better end it here. 

xoxo

kate (:

done... Done... DONE!

finally school's over, i can return to normal. well haven't been blogging lately, too busy with shitty exams

for this particular blog, i will refer to myself in third person (something i got out of grey's anatomy)

this saturday kate went to prom with calvin. kate thought is was boring, and thought people there were waiting to go to the after party. kate was correct and kate left into the trap. kate went to ruums for the first time, and thought the dance floor and music was brillant, but kate doesn't particularliy like the audience there though.

kate's exam are over. mandarin was a piece of shit, same goes to anthropology. its hurt kate's hands, and kate's wondering why kate even bother taking IB classes. kate got an A- in her english exam (don't judge kate by her english exam score, just because kate's half english. ISKL english is like hard hard, different from public school) kate hate spanish, kate forgot a lot of verbs kate needed to know.

kate's getting annoyed with third person reference and will continue in first person...

i've been watching too much tv series. grey's anatomy, just finished gossip girl, deleted OC for House MD. what's next? Lost or Heroes, sorry not my type. but in episode 22 of season 2 i believe had a song i really loved. its called "nowhere warm" by Kate Havenvik (hey! same name (: anyways here's the lyric, and dn't worry i won't do a "detailed annotation"

I go nowhere high
Go nowhere warm
Until I see your smile and feel your calm
And I lick a dime
I crave for you boy
You’re like a parachute descending from the sky

And I’m sure you’re on your way
Yes I’m sure you’re on the road

I go nowhere high
Go nowhere warm
Until you’re by my side
Your hand in mine
And I’ve always known
You’re like a feather
You go where wind and fire melt together

And I’m sure you’re on your way
Yes I’m sure you’re on the road
And I’m sure you’re faster than before
Yes I know you’re somewhere on the road
I reckon there is nothing more to say

download it if you want to, warn its isn't rnb or rock.. but i don't know a melodic song (:

odd day are a waste of time. i'm never going to school on such day again. exception from that life pretty the same. started to study mandarin. hate it, fuck literacy devices ):
thanks ricky for making me choose my side (:
making a mother's day book. quite sappy right? who cares :P

anyways... i'm soooooo pissed off. bloody mad at this flipping condo, no water! how can i survive without water, may i ask? now i understand (in some ways) how the third world citizen are feelings due to lack of water and sanitation.

school life's till the same. i have my exam in one and a half weeks. NERVOUS and UNPREPARED! and i have to finish my english like... like... THIS FRIDAY. i'm freaking out with such small problems, imagine people who are suffering. note to kate, stop worrying... be calm!

that's it for now.

XOXO

ps. gossip girl comes out today!
pps. here is my egotistic moment

fuck artist compulsive disorder. life isn't up to the standard right now. so not brilliant, instead its unremarkable.

lame... life is getting so boring and still. i have a blooming headache here, and have to wait for my darling mother. it isn't that fun, f8ck i have training tonight as well. not very fun, i wanna just be a snake and fake my death for 5 hours.

yesterday i didn't sleep till 1.30 i think or 2. lack of sleep. lack of food. lack of satisfaction. f8ck life i wanna just go home and curl in my bed and sleep for the rest of my life. i sound so emo ): no fun!

anyways here's the only place i can whine now, i had made a promise not to whine to my mum often. or else she'll ignore me for the whole time. my exam's in like 2 and a half weeks, i only JUST got my notes organized. i wanna go home. that reminds me something to look forward too (: gossip girl! its getting more and more exciting. oh! i love it. imagine ISKL having such blog, freaky right?

anyway i'll update later (:

XOXO
Kate