non sense

i am going to ramble about how much i hate life right now. haha, i am fucking depress. i feel ugly and overweight. i feel so useless and stupid. i believe i can't do shit, and don't understand why am i even going to university. all i wanna do it melt in the wall, and become invisible. hiding away from society all alone. x

Post Alcoholic Depression

FUCK THIS. there is one reason why i hate the after effect of being under the influence of alcohol and that is not the hangover (because i don't get them often, and i know what cures a hangover) but the very fact that alcohol makes me feel depress or should i say emo!

life sucks and its boring and pointless, i just want to go back to england right now. x

Friends

people say friends come and go, but i believe once you have a special set of friends that come, they won't just go. misono, yuka and natasha. they are my best friends i've ever gotten. we talked to each other about everything, tell each other our faults and compliment each other for our goods. though we are all scattered all over the world right now, one day i know we'll reunited and pass those days/weeks/months/years with laughter and memories that will never be forgotten. love you, and miss you guys a lot! x

haha, having the most random and weirdest MSN conversation, first started out with misono and then dragged yuka in it. the things we've been and are talking about = ultimate! nothing can top such randomness and crazyness from all four of us. once all four of us are put in a room alone, there will be lots of chattering and laughs (:

yuka and her cockroach adventures. misono and ali comments on my status. plus all the non sense about misono living in kate's vagina. looking for cheap flight back to malaysia. planning out drunk nights out when we come back.

i can't wait! all i have to do it save some money (: and get my air tickets. work hard, study hard and party harder when i'm back in town! x

Some Summer Artwork

my mum got me doing her sub plan this summer, i can't believe she threw last year's sub plans away! meaning i had redo all grades, from prep senior to grade 5. well here are four of the samples that i've posted up:- self portrait for 5th grade, tropical birds for 3rd grade, butterflies for 2nd grade and sea turtles for 1st grade. but the ultimate is prep senior called hand print horse!


as childish i can be, i've actually named all these 4 of these animals. haha, my mum thought i was being silly. but to be honest, we are still children. my mum can't say anything to defend herself because everyday she has her "mad half an hour" (as she refers it) and today she and simon (my bro) picked on me so much! they were whining me up so badly that i snapped ): haha, but they didn't take it personally.


the names for the name animals are:-
handprint horse = Mandy
sea turtle = Speedy
tropical bird = Paddy
butterfly = Sally

Don't ask me why I chose those names, they just happened to be the first thing that came to my mind, well two of the names are from the tv series called Shameless shown in the uk, so i guess two of the names were from there. x

my course

okay. since i've nothing what so ever to do, i'm going to start blabbering on about my life in the past 10+ months while living in the uk. first my course (:

i attend nottingham trent university and study BA (HONS) graphic design. i love my subject a lot! even though i do have my break downs due to stress-level. well i can't blame anyone about that, i was the one who decided to party day and night right. right, back to topic! my tutors were good (which is important, unlike stupid lambie) but there were some erm... weird ones? CHRIS BROWN classic example, i bet everyone (well at least i think so) always thought he was hungover (probably is to be frank), or just rolled out of bed without bothering to comb his hair. and there's douglous! and and and anthony! haha, i'm so mean gossiping about my tutors in 1st year.

my courseworks were alright, so fun so not so fun. especially the type hero, i hated it! i really really liked the book cover design, type terms, mycube, and the a moment in time. it was a pity i didn't have much time for my moment in time project. i was stupid enough to leave it 3 days before hand-in time! well what comes around goes around, just thank god i've passed!

my proudest work for the whole year

this is my book cover for "Red Dragon" by Thomas Harris

my page layout basically filled with non sense, maybe that's why i nearly failed first year

a photo which is part of my mycube project, reflects what makes me up.

anyways ppl, that's it for my course. wait a second, i haven't told you about how i use to sleep in "the evolution of graphic design." every monday at 9 in the morning, no doubt toward the middle of his lectures i'll fall asleep like a baby. went to his lecture hungover/drunk before too. oh life! haha x

i've dyed my hair, it was supposedly called copper, but i think its more toward red. once a brunette, then a blond. now i feel like a red head. sorry about the quality of the photos, my camera was nicked by someone in a houseparty when i had to go to the hospital. i think i should start blogging about my experiences in england from the past year. that's if i remember it :P x

dissappointment

i'm extremely disappointed with myself ): i can't believe all those month in england where i've drank so much more than last night didn't pay off. i was fucked out of my face, i don't have a clue on what i've done. adding on i bet i humiliated myeslf BIG TIME! well its called SOD'S LAW. fuck it that's life right? x

suffering from "jetlagged"

i've been in kuala lumpur for more than a month, but i still am on british time ): why can't i just sleep! i was sleepy just now, but now at the moment in time i'm not tired what so ever. maybe i'm hungry. but it can't be, i had dim sum (1 xiu mai, pai guat, and lo pak gou) plus vietnamese kitchen (some chicken piece, half a slice of lemongrass fish, and aberguans with no rice.) this is just sad! i wanna sleep.

i've realized my liking for thinking. i can think all day and night about non sense. but when puzzling situations come along, i can't stop thinking! i "web" out all possibility/signs/signals/whatever to try and solve it myself. but in the end of the day i realized that the only way to know is ask, take action. but then again, i prefer not to do such think because knowing the "answer" from the "question" isn't always a good things.

i'm having a cough plus a sore throat. isn't good ): i'm really hoping i'm not getting H1N1, but i'm actually guessing its too much smoking, shisha-ing and drinking (minus it a bit, give me credit i haven't drank as much i would in england.) but i shall recover, hopefully very soon.

shit this is just great, i have to go my hometown tomorrow. a long drive fro my brother, having actually to see the relatives. it'll be NO FUN! i dislike going back, due to the fact we just never really got along.

anyways i better actually try and sleep now. x

actions has been taken

i know what i did isn't good, plus i feel really guilty for such action. but now its done, i finally have it off the chest.

we can't always dwell on the past, we have to move forward and seek for the right one.

Back In Action

i believe the only reason why i'm blogging again, its because i'm getting a bit bored. plus having too much opinions on the top of my head that needs to be release somehow and somewhere.

really i feel extremely egotistic and whiny. haha, all i do it whine.

anyways fuck yuka, she's leaving me again ): it'll be extremely sad, but then hopefully we'll all meet up in melb? london? tokyo? kuala lumpur? we'll find somewhere and somehow. x