mix feelings

mum been saying that i'm been uptight recently. and i've asked her why, she said i just am. i figured out the reason why. i've been like this for the past few weeks. everythings been getting on my nerves, literally everything.

going back to england this time i have mix feelings. i don't know why i just do. first stop, i need to deal with my bloody housing. due to hanna's absents i'll be helping her out a bit. but problem is i don't know when i can move in. and bonding with the housemate, i am sociable. but at this rate, malaysia has kind of changed me, in what way that i don't know how. my brother is actually coming over to england to study, which is a good thing, but a stressful thing for me because i, as his elder sister, needs to help him fit in and settle down. i have to deal with housing for him and everything else. plus finding a job, i'm positive i'll be able to get one. but the question is when? i want one within two weeks of being there. i believe i actually stress over things i shouldn't do, but then again. that's me right? i really wanna come back during december, i'm very determine too. determination is good enough for me to get what i want (: x