signs by bloc party

Two ravens in the old oak tree and
One for you and one for me and
Bluebells in the late December
I see signs now all the time

The last time we slept together
There was something that was not there
You never wanted to alarm me
But I'm the one that's drowning now

I could sleep forever these days
Because in my dreams I see you again
But this time fleshed out fuller faced
In your confirmation dress

It was so like you to visit me
To let me know you were okay
It was so like you to visit me
You always worried about someone else

At your funeral I was so upset
So upset so upset
In your life you were larger than this
Statue-statuesque

I see signs now all the time
That you're not dead, you're sleeping
I believe in anything
That brings you back home to me

I see signs now all the time
That you're not dead, you're sleeping
I believe in anything
That brings you back home to me.

- Signs by Bloc Party

this song reminds me of my father's dead. vivid imagery of how he just laid on the hospital bed and his life slowly being replace by death. it was and always will be the most miserable day of my life. it was as though i was trapped in a nightmare that will never end. i never seen a person suffer for so long, and awaiting for death to come. because of you i've become strong, realized that there is more to life. now i'm a happy-go-lucky girl who appreciates everything that comes my way. its been four years and i'm over your death. its just sometimes words, song, movie, tv series, real life story make me think of you, and causes a tear to drop silently down my cheek. x