movies. movies. movies.

well, recently i've been doing nothing. particularly nothing. okay, i did do some things, to do with my university and stuff. but exception from that and CHORES! i've been lying in bed and watching movie! tv series got kinda boring for me, so i wanted a change. it all started out with the trailer for The Other Boleyn Girl, then Shakespeare in Love. because i was interested in english historical context type, though Shakespeare in Love isn't exactly historical, but the ancient-ness of it, made me want to watch it.

Shakespeare in Love
starring Gwyneth Paltrow and Joseph Fiennes


well, just a short summary. its basically depicting how William Shakespeare (one of the most renown english play writer and poet) wrote Romeo and Juliet. Its pretty much a beautiful movie, involving humour and laughter. but the question lies behind is whether Shakespeare really wrote Romeo and Juliet with such situation. anyhow, i still love this movie. it was the winner for (don't know how much academy awards) but the english within the movie consist a bit of "old english" usage. therefore, it may be hard to understand. but i instantly "fell in love" with "Shakespeare within the movie." So romantic, and his expression when looking as gwyneth paltrow. as the photo shown below is one of my favourites (: so much i wish my boyfriend could write beautiful love poetry ;)

Lady Viola as Juliet and Shakespeare as Romeo

The Other Boleyn Girl
starring Natalie Portman, Scarlett Johansson, and Eric Bana

This movie kind of based on historical facts, although not everything stated within the movie was true. but its interesting, on how the church of england arise, and why king henry VIII did what he did. in addition, the virgin queen was born, which changed many things in the english history (i hope what i'm saying is true) the storyline is based on a novel written by (i don't know who) about two boleyn sisters . mary and anne. one is served as a mistress and the other makes king henry VIII make her queen. be whole story is actually kinda complicated. so better if you watch it for yourself. but its really only recommended for people find historical context interesting.

mary and king henry VIII

me. whining.

i need somewhere to complain and whine! so i'm doing it here. bewared, if you hate people whom whine, please just leave.

FUCK! i hate administration stuff. i hate the fact i have NO WHERE, literally NO WHERE to live when i start university. guarantee accommodation, bullshit! then why the fuck is all the rooms booked up? i need somewhere to live, mister. i barely know england, and now u want me to go find a private sector? damn, how? i'm stuck. fucking hell. i think i whined about this before, but i'm still pissed cause i want a campus accommodation. its way easier than having to do all those paper work, and checking the places out. such luck i have here! nevermind, i've given up entirely. so what to do?

okay i'm done (:

yes... yes..

i'm pretty much doing nothing but a lot of things. its hard to explain. i just feel like lazying around, but fuck i have stuff to do. stupid university! why DID i volunteer to go over seas anyway. lame! anyhow, now i'm stuck with no where to live (fucking nottingham trent's accommodation) and stupid visa to do along with EPF. oh, so many things to do just SO i can go overseas.

now lets talk about a movie i've watched recently.
yes i know it's an old movie. but i loved it! its such a chick flick. damn! haha, but only reason why i've watched it cause katherine heigl, commonly known as dr. isobel stevens (:

i've always like her. me and natasha came up with a "beauty classification." and heigl is definately a classic beauty. i've always like classic beauties, which includes liv tyler, audrey hepburn etc. etc. i love the complexions, and standout features. they are, to me, the perfect kind. the bodies aren't too skinny, like the models. but i've noticed has curves, but then again. they are still slim and slender! how i wish to be like them. personally, i admire their beauty, not sure about their personality.

james marsden! i didn't know he was cyclopes in x-men. but anyways he was in the movie, then he's fine! he's a bit skinny, but i'm not complaining. its was his character as kevin doly (i think that was the name) that i loved. so romantic and cheeky! but i find marsden damn sexy! especially his eyes. wow! amazing. charisma (:

anyways that's about it. oh, i'm trying hard to lose weight, but fuck. its hard! just have to keep up with the work out. i also sprint my fucking ankle (again). hate injuries with recovery time! it isn't fun ):

peace out!

oh, just wonderful

okay. i don't remember when i last updated my blog, but life's okay (: i'm still can't believe i'm off to england in a few weeks time.

but i have dilemma! i feel fat. like fucking fat. so fat that i feel like a elephant or hippo or pig. damn ): its not fun! i wanna be like i was last year when i was like 50kg. now i'm like 60kg ): no fun! note to self, STOP EATING and go WORK OUT! damn ): depressed now! fuck

anyways went to maison, since beloved yuka enomoto will be leaving for japan for like 3 weeks i think. then 9 days after natasha's going to go. i'll be left alone! nevermind, i have to concentrate on my competition. extremely wonderful~ wait! that mean i can lose weight as an excuse :P back to maison. well, we went to mojo first, cause maison was closed for some weird competition. then at 11ish we went back and had fun! danced till my hips couldn't take it anymore. seriously, i need to belly dance with mum again. it helps strengthen my hips and i won't look like slut dancer but a sexy dancer :P speaking of slut dancer. wow! yestereday there were so many i love them! so flattering and feminine. dude, i could left my leg up and shit (thanks to tkd) so i told yuka, maybe i should just perform some kicks the guys will be so erm... excited? haha.

anyway nothing much to say. i have to clean the whole condo up tomorrow and the clothes and dished. thanks to my beloved brother for not doing anything! wow, such a good boy.

so peace out (:

i think you noticed my dilemma (i've gain a lot of weight)

love this photo, cause you can't see my fugly face

me and yuka (:

wow, very flattering indeed!

me and natasha

sometimes i just don't understand you

well... i kinda lazy to continue with my "mis amigas" entire. but i have another 3 more amigas, whom yo les quieres. 

the sun is shining again for me. nottingham trent has finally accepted me (thanks so much or else i would be taking a gap year (wasting my fucking time on nothing)) but now i have to do all the bloody administration stuff, accommodation, visa and shit. adding on the stress of MONEY! i hate the economy, and fuck the people whom keep rising the petrol price. i don't drive but seriously its getting unreasonable. you can't compare it was england, because its 1 against 7 (i like to max it) but not everyone is rich, not everyone can afford to live on luxury. imagine u earn 700rm, and ur petrol consumption is what, about 80rm per week. 80 x approx 4 weeks = 320; 700-320=380. that's left of what you earn, 380 still needs to be spend on food and other necessaries. fuck the idea of saving, you can't save when you have no choice but to spend ur money on things you NEED! 

okay that's enough of my non-sense. anyways the information proved it like bullshit, and invalid! 

my mum's going to china!! can't wait, a whole week being with my brother. INDEPENDENCE! but i have to do the chores. lame, sods law. i can't wait for natasha to come back from europe, then we can go out and club again! anyways i remember what i wanted to say.

i fucking hate jerks. they are the biggest bastards in the world. i swear they should be castrated, and put on display to let ppl know who they are. anyway there's a guy (no names just incase) told me that he and his girlfriend broke up for good. so he asked me out to club, i said no cause of training reasons. instead said i'll met up with him next thursday, cause he sounds sad. but guess what, later that day i found out he didn't break up! what the fuck.. fucking twat! if you wanted to see just ask me out for a drink, don't need to give some pointless excuse lad. damn you! next time you dare say hi to me, you'll get a slap to your face. i hate jerks like you , i hate liars like you. you don't lie about ur relationship. say your being faithful, fuck it. you told a person you just broke up with them, then what to seek them for comfort! not a chance, i swear you'll get slap if not punch in the face! 

anything that got to me was the fact i have to go to another GTF competition. i'm in no mood for competitions, well no mood for GTF ones. i hate their rules, and political bias-ness, especially that day during the sparring with that girl. fuck you, gave it to her and not me when i deserved it (at least what master tan said) nevermind, i'll train even harder and get even more tougher. hopefully not get injured before or during the tournament. imagine kate in a cast just before heading off to england, just a memory to bring with me. i aim for 2 golds this time, 2 golds! 

anyways enough of my non sense i'm off

peace out. 

MUY FELIZ!!!!!

Yo tengo muy feliz! Porque yo tengo mi resultados del examen y yo recibido resultados beunos! 

(kate's attempt of using her spanish skills)

i'm back on track

after two days of being emo, fuck, i pulled myself together and started some new paths.
i'm constructing some new roads for myself, new road = new destiny
i currently have 4 plans.

Plan A
- apply for local art school, then after 3 years transfer
- scuba diving license
- more traveling!

Plan B
- if Nottingham Trent University accepts me (:
- for sure, I'll go without second thoughts

Plan C
Part A
- if they reject me
- appeal again for Nottingham Trent University
- all else fails, goodbye England. hello Malaysia!
Part B
- stay in England for a couple of month
- go to Italy to visit my grand-aunt and uncle
- find a job around England too (:

Plan D
- apply to a university in Italy
- look at Academia Italiana, Florence
- learn Italian :P

well, that what i've planned (: hopefully one of them will work out for me
secretly, i'm desperate for plan b (;

just can't get what i want

life's fucked up, its a piece of shit. i'm not going to england, i've accepted it. i can't wait anymore, its been too long. all i feel like doing now is curling up into a little ball, and cry my head off until i'm dehyedrated and die.

i feel like stabbing myself 3,4 times just so the pain will go away. no one understands how i feel right now. not even my mum, she just tole me there nothing i can do now, but just wait. i can't wait, i'm angry and furious. i just want to die, so all my emotions will go away. then i won't need to feel anything anymore.

i want to go to Nottingham Trent University. i want to make more friends, i want to meet ppl whom i got to know on facebook. i want to visit grandma, grandad, aunty louise, little benny boy, and everyone i know. its so unfair, i just can't get what i want can't it. i was never able to get what i want, i mean the things i wanted in life are never what i want. i want to go to england, i'm dying to go to england. i want that acceptance! that's nothing much to ask for. i'm not doing a medical or a law degree. fuck, i'm doing a graphic designs degree. what do i need to stress that i'm capable for the course, i won't mind killing myself to get in. as i said, i'm dying to get in. i'll die to get in.

fuck it, i give up. i should've gave up long ago.

fuck my future. i give up

i can't believe it, after so long, the fucking admin calls and says, "they don't know what did i sent them!!!!!!!"

FUCKING HELL,
FUCKING STUPID..
and MAJOR DISAPPOINTMENT

damn it, i can't believe i swear. i just give up my hopes, i rather stay in kl and get a scuba diving license and wonder all the diving destination. save my mum and i money!

anyways i cried and shit. but still went out. went to heritage mansion with tanes and his friend g-when (extremely pretty girl, beautiful features)

i was very glad to go, and not everyone can go! its like an A-List area, all the high profit maker and famous go. i got the chance to meet some ppl, whom are... well, very interesting. adding on, a model called "sunshine" she's brilliant and friendly. u know what, do u think

i could be a model?

i can't. she told me and g-when to send in our portfolios and she'll get us some jobs. fuck, even if i send my portfolio, i know i won't get a single fucking job!!!!! i'll do it, if i get one. fucking hell, life's great. then i get more money :P

anyways i fucking hate my life now, and damn depressed. fuck.. i can't stop swearing.

night

fuck is all i can say

i can't fucking sleep. shit, i wanna sleep.
fuck life sometimes. i hate waiting.
i just wanna know, i'm fucking nervous now.
fuck IB fuck trent. can't in someway i get to know sooner than suffer?
it'll make my life so much better not mention more peaceful, and lesser worry lines

hopefully i get to go out tomorrow night.
please tanes don't cancel on me (: